November 16th, 2006

Current Location: Home Subject: It has been a long time Time: 10:56 pm Current Mood: Like Death

So basically I feel like I'm going to die. Someone congratulated me today on being single. I was not amused. I don't even know what to say here. Really I am just writing so that I won't call Erik. For 22 years all I ever wanted in life was to be in love. I had it and now the thought of it makes me sick and terrified. And I'm so sick of what everyone as to say. I know I am going to be fine, I know I'm going to be successful, I have more than enough men asking me out every night, I know I'm beautiful, I know he's a jerk, I know everything but all I want is him and I wan't to feel better.

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July 18th, 2004

Subject: everyone click it Time: 11:08 am

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March 9th, 2004

Current Music: Assemblage 23--I am the rain Subject: Obligatory Update Time: 12:32 am Current Mood: blah

Things are going alright. I have to start doing some college applications like really soon. I want ot buy heather a wedding present tomorrow and i have to go to therapy and work and call earthlink and do homework and maybe go to the gym. that is how everyday has been and its starting to suck. Im still stuck in a bad mood for the most part. i have this thing that i want to be like someone else or have someone else's great attributes or great life. i seem to always be displeased and wanting more. oh well. i guess it will pass lke everything else. i hope to go to poetry club on thursday and hopefully see cool people there. I guess i am starting to feel the overwhelming pressure of needing to create a life for myself--a nitch. I will never be a great artist, nor do i want to be i guess. but it is one, of very few things, that i value. Ive been reaching back to highschool wanting that simpler life. i had sooo many values back then. i was the democrat for the school. i created the poetry club and kept amnesty int'l alive and now i am so disinclined. I wish i was pulled by my heart still.

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February 25th, 2004

Subject: omg!! Time: 04:24 pm

I don't know how to explain this one, but this is what your fate is. Hey, at least you're cute. Maybe that's your fate. You're fated to be cute, and you have good taste. What is your Fate? brought to you by Quizilla I love it!!!

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February 10th, 2004

Subject: something maybe like this... Time: 11:42 pm Current Mood: sad

We have lingered in the chambers of the sea By the sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown Till human voices wake us, and we drown. ---- it's difficult not to worry about what happens next certain looks sort out confused looks and certain looks sport confused looks and I watched us talking in the mirror and you put on that look that says this little star wishes she weren't single it is the eye that catches me a man protesting his worth it is the year that catches you putting the shake on your words you are alert as a tigress at a common table with her fate you can almost taste it we'll be gone by morning or be together by then and I believe every woman has made up her mind to win ---- Covered by the blind belief That fantasies of sinful screens Bear the facts, assume the dye End the vows no need to lie, enjoy Take a ride, take a shot now Cos nobody loves me Its true Not like you do Who am I, what and why Cos all I have left is my memories of yesterday Ohh these sour times Cos nobody loves me Its true Not like you do After time the bitter taste Of innocence decent or race Scattered seeds, buried lives Mysteries of our disguise revolve Circumstance will decide...

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February 4th, 2004

Subject: Arg Time: 09:36 pm

Damn you all for not listening to me!!! I just slept the better half of the evening. Yeah, that was fun.

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December 31st, 2003

Subject: this one is way better!!! Time: 05:23 pm

LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: debasement Your haiku: am there."tell me how does one suck a fuck?"that is my cue to jump Username: Created by Grahame I really love haikus!!!

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Subject: Oh yeah...this looks fun Time: 12:13 pm

Spell your name in bands/artists S- sigur ros U- (I honestly cant think of one) R- rasputina A- assemblage 23 H- halfler trio A- antony and the johnsons R- radiohead T- the cure Have you ever had a song written about you? Im not sure, but I have had a poem written about me. What song makes you cry? I have cried to songs but no song has ever made me cry. The closest is Sigur ros(just about anything they do) and pictures of you because I was listening to it when i found out my aunt had cancer and when i was driving to her funeral. What song makes you happy? Pavement--Carrot rope What do you like to listen to before bed? Current 93 Name a song by Coal Chamber hah! Who was/were your idol/s when you were younger? my mom, the inventor of the toilet, as we know it, jennifer gray First album you ever bought? The bangles(the one with walk like an egyptian)

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December 20th, 2003

Time: 12:58 pm

Just because it bothers me: Than= a comparison. [i.e. He is older than Joe.] Then= an indication of time. [i.e. We went to the pool and then to the park.] Really I am not trying to be an ass and it is not directed at any one person. I have run into so many people in the last week that have misused these words that I have decided that everyone who reads this will be better off.

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October 31st, 2003

Subject: can you guess? Time: 01:24 pm Current Mood: depressed

1. Are you male or female? Sow Some Lonesome Corner So Many Flowers Bloom 2. Describe yourself: broken chord can sing a little 3. How do people feel about you? 13 Angles Standing Guard 'Round the Side of Your Bed 4. How do you feel about yourself? Built Then Burnt (Hurrah! hurrah!) 5. Describe your boyfriend: Blown-Out Joy from Heaven's Mercied Hole 6. Where would you rather be? C'mon Comeon (Loose an Endless Longing) 7. Describe what you want to be: Triumph of Our Tired Eyes 8. Describe how you live: Stumble Then Rise on Some Awkward Morning 9. Describe how you love: Long March Rocket or Doomed Airliner 10. Share a few words of wisdom: Take These Hands and Throw Them in the River

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October 28th, 2003

Subject: Ha ha! I win! Time: 10:59 am

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul debasement goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Captain Hooker. dawnjosie gives you 9 brown chocolate-flavoured gummy bears. digitalpulse tricks you! You lose 3 pieces of candy! dracusoara gives you 4 red orange-flavoured gummy worms. errore gives you 3 dark blue spearmint-flavoured gummy worms. hennahokum gives you 16 teal mint-flavoured pieces of taffy. kezghan gives you 1 mauve tropical-flavoured hard candies. nnoire gives you 2 white coconut-flavoured miniature candy bars. wherethefuckare tricks you! You lose 15 pieces of candy! debasement ends up with 17 pieces of candy. Go trick-or-treating! Username: Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

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October 25th, 2003

Subject: Ow Time: 01:02 pm Current Mood: sore

A toothpick in the foot really doesnt feel good. Even the day after =(

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October 10th, 2003

Time: 10:55 am Current Mood: hot

So I think I am goin to get a job going soon. I figure that will give me the "security" I need. I will pick up a letter of reccomendation this weekend and hopefully get a resume together as well. Maybe that will solve everything. At least I hope so.

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September 6th, 2003

Subject: Oh yeah Time: 11:35 am

I heard about this thing that really sucks. From now on ticketmaster is going to reserve the best seats and auction them to the highest bidders.

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September 3rd, 2003

Subject: This was worth updating for... Time: 05:58 pm

<td bgcolor="#000000">Who will play you:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Janeane Garofalo </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Who will play your love interest:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Edward Norton </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Weeks you will stay in the box office:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">21</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Song that will play during your love scene:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Kylie Minogue - Love at First Sight </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Song that will play during your death:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Scheer - Goodbye </td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Your name:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr> Your Life: The Movie by mintyduck Created with quill18's MemeGen!

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June 28th, 2003

Subject: Oh yeah!! Time: 06:16 pm

I am going shopping right now for someones birthday (hint hint!!!)

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June 21st, 2003

Subject: pretty funny Time: 11:04 am

debasement Magic Number 13 Job Most Hated Person - Ever Personality The Glass Is Half-Full! Temperament As High As A Very High Kite Sexual Straight Likely To Win A Home Help Badge Me - In A Word Compassionate Colour Brought to you by MemeJack

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June 15th, 2003

Time: 12:10 am

[Other Voices] i Live with Desertion - and Eight Million People. More often then not, you feel alone and hungry for something with substance. Whats the point of talking to people who will never relate? What Cure Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla

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June 13th, 2003

Subject: elleohelle Time: 05:30 pm

my fire comes from within Hardset Head. Relationships, people, and everything that has an effect on your emotions. It's not about world issues, politics or society with you. It's about what's going on in your heart, and how you are dealing with it. Your fire comes from within. Which Skinny Puppy song are you? brought to you by Quizilla

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Time: 05:27 pm

glitter_trash 106% digitalpulse 98% cthulhukid 94% dawnjosie 84% How compatible with me are YOU?

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